I have always been a dreamer. I easily get caught up in my own world and I often forget to see what’s going on out there in the real world.
From the very beginning I wanted to go to Korea and after a few months of being a kpop fan, I successfully turned my sister into a kpop fan as well as a kdrama lover. At that time we were in no position to save up money but we made a pinky promise and swore that one day, we would go together for sure. A few years passed and I unintentionally started learning Korean. It sort of just happened. However I weren’t studying very often or effectively and after 4 Months I still couldn’t introduce myself or understand/reply to simple questions. Back then I didn’t know what I was doing what so ever, and it weren’t really that important to me, whether I did well or not.
After 4 months, my economical situation changed just a tiny bit, leaving me with hope for a trip to Korea in my future. I immediately started looking into flight tickets, hotels, guesthouses, activities and so on, to figure out how much it would cost me. From the beginning we had decided that we would make this trip, the trip of our lives and we didn’t want to cut down on any expenses if it meant that we couldn’t see and buy all of the things that we had dreamed of, during all that time. After looking into everything I discovered that it would take me a little over two years to save up for this trip and I was actually okay with this. I sent my sister a text immediately saying “In may 2017, you and I are leaving for Korea”, and it has been a deal ever since.
When we started looking at different housing options we found a small guesthouse and we completely fell in love with it. Do you guys know that feeling? Seeing or reading about something and just knowing for sure that it’s the perfect place for you? The rooms aren’t very big, the walls are thin, you live with the owners and other guests, you share the bathroom and kitchen, and it’s in a different part of Seoul than what we wanted. In other words.. It’s the complete opposite of what we wanted. Funny how things work out, huh? To this day we are still planning on staying there.
Anyway, while reading about this place I suddenly felt a big amount of greed for learning Korean. I wanted to be able to introduce myself at the guesthouse and I wanted to be able to say at last a few proper sentences. From that very day I started studying every day, and that’s when I discovered how much I loved self-studying this beautiful language. Whenever I would have a bad day, I would go online and read about the guesthouse again, look at pictures of the area, or go through the internet looking for good food places in that area.
Yesterday I was going through all of our plans again, I was looking at pictures, reading all the new reviews that have been posted, checking flight prices, and I was reminded of this first greed again. I am now more than capable of introducing myself and creating small basic sentences. I definitely reached my goal. But now I want more. I want to be able to order food for my sister and I, without having to worry about messing up, I want to book the guesthouse using Korean, I want to try and order chicken at Han river, I want to go see a movie in the theater, I want to try all the food I possibly can (okay, almost all the food..), I want to go book shopping, I want to be able to pick up a random newpaper or magazine and actually enjoy it while sitting in a coffee shop without relying on my dictionary, and most importantly, I want to be able to get to know the owners and other guests at the guesthouse.
Once again, I am filled with greed – And I absolutely love it!
I guess I’m writing this post as a reminder to myself. Half of the waiting time has passed even though I thought it never would. In a month I go to London for the TOPIK exam. 2-3 months later I’ll be buying the flight tickets for Korea, and then everything will suddenly become very very real. I want to remind myself of the progress I have made in the first half of my waiting time, and even more, I want to remind myself of the things I want to achieve in the second half.
I’m going to work hard and I’m going to greet Korea with a smile.